it's been like a month( feels like months) since someone called me for an interview. I'm beginning to feel like a useless bum-with no purpose. and with stories like the NTU-suicide, it got me thinking


WHEN IS THIS EVER GOING TO END?


i mean, how long more God, before the world crumbles? Crumbles to the work of the evil one? I don't wanna "bow down" to him. he's not worth anything. as i was sitting in my shower, i couldn't help it. it's been a month and more, since i've cried( the last time tears poured down was on my birthday) and just today. it happened. I cried- pouring all my fears and iniquities to the ONLY ONE who can save me. I was tired and worried,that- thanks to the merril/lynch "hoedown"- i will never have God's promises fulfilled in my life. I don't want to be those people who are needy to God,when times are bad. I want to remember and be with Him, both ways.

I was reading Isaiah 4-5. Kinda opened my eyes to a whole new thinking. I mean, I thought when randomly picked these verses, that there were gg to be words of encouragement. but as i read on, i realised that God was teaching the house of Isreal a lesson- that if they don't wake up, WOE and JUDGEMENT is gg to befall upon them.

And it aien't pretty.

however, along the horror and pain, there was tinge of hope.
Isaish 4:6
" It will be a shelter and shade from the heat of the day, and a refuge and hiding place form the storm and rain...."

I tot i was in this for the long haul- alone, and empty. But i spotted this amidst all the choas, of the Chpt 5, i realised that the Branch of the Lord, has always extended towards me. sometimes, when it rains, it pours. but i'm always warm and never wet. His glory is my canopy of hope and dreams to come. I'm never alone. Thank You Lord.


So, i know these couple of days is definitely gg to be a "uphill mountain" but if i have faith like a mustard seed, I can look to that mountain and say MOVE, and it will MOVE.

thanks to everyone who's been by my side:

Mum
Dad
Mandy
Ruth!
Glenn BFF
Sumo!
Rachel Jie
Renae
Dwight
Lester<3
and some other names......

thanks for all your support and love. i couldn't have gotten through the weeks without u guys!:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sz5sOPj_0_U

it's alright,
He's on my side....
and He knows my every need.