the story continues
Wednesday, October 29, 2008 | Wednesday, October 29, 2008
sorry for the inconvenience
a letter to a close friend.
dearest dear, i think it's high-and-mighty time you hear this. i was really considering whether i should even be writing this. but i guess it doesn't just go out to you, but to me also. i'm a very straight-forward kinda person. don't like to beat-round-the bush. sometimes my forwardness can be mistaken as a "dislike"....but i guess, the world's not perfect, and so are the inhabitants. what i am trying to say is that- you must understand that things aren't always the way it seems. i've learnt that now. i bet you have too. again, all of us see the world with a different spyglass. But that's the beauty of it. everything and everyone is different. Unique in culture, in thoughts, in speech. So when i convey a message of something different- something traditional, don't fret. yes, i maybe modern with certain concepts. but if you've known me long enough, you'll understand that i am the old and the new fused into one. i have the sense of the future, along with the values and traditions. That makes me-ME. and no one can change that. don't just say " i understand who you are" , accept it. believe in me, like how i believe in you. in the beauty of God creating someone so special and unique as you. Friends are people, living 2 separate lives, with no pressure in between. they care about each other from a distant, and wish with all their hearts that their friends are happy. Somewhat i don't think that we're that kind of "friends". in fact, i think we're more that just- JUST Friends, which in my opinion, is kinda scary. i don't know why, but sometimes, i fear talking to you- why? coz we're always arguing about opinions and values-which of course, differs on the other side of the line. and that makes me annoyed and uncomfortable. when i call someone, i want it to be peaceful and joyous. i tend to confront people-FACE TO FACE. at some point, i feel as if it's my fault- coz at some degree, your opinion actually means something to me......i'm torn between listening and not listening. i'm leaning towards the latter. you must understand, what happened happened. it will and can never happended again...i guess sometimes we bring a bit of history into this friendship and it can't be helped. But i hope you can understand that you're not the only one in my life. there are others i care about. when you say that "....i don't care about others..", " ...you're always doing it to me...."- it makes me feel worse that i already do( although i guess that's part of the plan). it maybe jokingly, but i know you mean it. and i'm sorry if i've hurt you in any other way. so let's put the past behind us, and start afresh. Just like the beginning- no string attached. Clean slate.
xoxo
A
♥ Hello wello.
Just Audrey Rick
2nd Jan
Liverpool FC fan
Daughter to my mom and dad
Best friend to my loves and peeps
BIG sis to my only One
Lurves
Green
TNG, Passionfruiters,Marshies 1079
Vintage lovers(including music)
(:
currently listening:
Why do it today when u can do it tom- Jamie Cullum
♥ Desires.
Get an iPod
Green Crumpler
sleepover!
TO PASS DRIVING TEST on minimum 2 tries
watch the sunset/sunrise with someone special
to get maintain the 3.5 GPA
have a tea/picnic at Fort Canning/Sentosa!
(midsummer's night dream lor)
guitar and amps
to go jamming with friends....Let's Go...
new BIBLE
to complete a love song to you,Lord it's NOT a master piece
stay up late without parents.1 am???..felt rather shaky though...don't wanna do it again
to have a better walk with God
Go to Perth for the Hols
to have my braces removed asap
go snorkelling.....see a new island...Koh Samui!!
where are my retainers?!!
share God's love, like never before[currently doing it!]
rock climbing?
join a marathon
a SPORTS watchPUMA-Brazilian colours!
go horse riding(now my butt hurts...)
go for mission trip!!i want i want!
swim w dolphins:))
to be able to see my god-child next year:))
go for a church-related workshop/conferenceYLMC
able to do all the housework
it's a never-ending task
spend more time with Mandy
get an OCS shirt(thanks Choy)
to go an island escape-alone
to get a new Phone!
(Finally!!!)
write a book
go on a date
still waiting.....never been asked....
go on a cruise holiday
(:
♥ Talkie.
♥ Strangers.
♥
Piglet!♥
Audrey♥
Lizzie♥
Glenn♥ BFF
Yy♥
izzie
su!
Pastor B
yy+abel
Nisha!w55N
inspirations
Clarie!
Liverpool YNWA
my Friendster
Passionfruits cell
Bridget
Christina-Duckie!!♥
Aizat
Shazzie
Kenny Kor:)
Serina!
Aini
Marcus- Randy's Twin**
Randy- Marcus Twin**
Shikin
my photo journal
Charlene!!
James
Joel
Tricia
Ryan Goh
♥ Dance hall.
Song code.
Recommended:
Imeem,
Myflashfetish.
♥ Credits.
Sweet.pulchritude- ♥
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