have u ever felt that u were in a nightmare??and you were living it for a whole week?

well if u're living one- then u're lucky because i'm living 2!

1. strange enough, gg happen to be in my analytical instrumentation class.* now seriously, i have no idea why they made it a "compulsory" module for us biotech students. saying that it'll do a great help for us when we enter the U. * okay, so i went with it. now, i was kinda excited and dreading- excited coz school was starting( although it has already been a week+); dreading because i have 4 different classes, 2 of which are in different blocks. so practically everyday, i'm running across campus to go for labs and maybe UTs!!which btw i think is a crazze notion(imagine have UTs, different modules, running from Eblocks to Wblocks in under 5mins. they're practically 200m away!)...just as things were turning for the better, i looked into my class roster and low-and-behold, i stumble upon a familiar name. yes, it was gg's. i was like- omgosh!why???DIFFERENT CLASSES AND NOW THIS??!!. i was terrified, at the same time annoyed. i mean what happens if we have to work together??i mean can we really put everything behind and work professionally?coz i know i can( i can!!) bu what about him. i mean in the first lesson, i was kinda looking at the board- and all i could see was gg's kiddy handwritting. and i tot to myself- i actually went after that? what was i thinking?!! so anways, the funny thing was that, i was trying to pretend nothing happen, and when i did enter the class( missing classroom, another day, another story....)he was like smirking at me. i was thinking- oh, thanks gg.no help u were.

2.
now, it's the worst nightmare...and to the least, you find yourself, in that nightmare- in reality.. everyone knows i love my family, but it's just sometimes, i really need to get away. i have a feeling that i can't leave them, although i really wanna try studying abroad. just recently, i've been receiving recruitment letters from the navy, telling me that they'll sponsor my studies,anywhere- everything looks so promising. but as always, there's always a catch. for some of you, you what it is. but at the same time, i have a feeling saying- Trust me and i will lead you to greener pastures......leaving my family is gg to be tough. as school's coming to end, i am beginning to feel real anxious and worried that things may go wrong if i were to leave for Uni.....a dream like that, has been in my head over and over again.

and now, with things like this...how am i going to make the decision of my life??

i just wish, things were back to normal- everything to the way and how it should be. nothing causing any rift or anxiety. but what's life without a lil'obstacles? it wouldn't be called life right?