woah, i am honestly, telling you..i can hardly open my eyes. i think the PANDA-eyes are so back....thanks to doing mandy's Chemistry notes so that she could sleep earlier for her maths paper today. sianz. tired. never felt this way. nearly wanted to NOT come to school.

But since when have i ever skipped school, right???

anyway, i don't know. i mean like nearly everywhere i go/turn, i'd see couples doing this and that...even at a concert...grinding or whatever u'd call it..sianz...it was annoying..or maybe coz i also wanted it( but i know i can't). i mean, i love my couple friends. they're the best. but to see couples-secular-outside doing erm 2nd bases and beyond was kinda gnarling on me and not in a good way i might add...


but last night was the best. i mean, i know i have been not talking to you, God. and it's been really disturbing me and making me feel inadequate coz only U can make me whole. You complete me, Lord. and i thank you. as i was singing, YOUR LOVE MAKES ME SING, i just had to the urge to have a DEEPER WORSHIP with Him. and it was really Great. no word, just music and my heart and all i have, stretched forward, placed before the altar. it couldn't be any better than that. i wrote a song, as u'd guess it, Deeper Worship-still in the works. But now , i know i am not alone and He opened the eyes of my heart again. and i don't it ever to close.....


well anyways, someone read an earlier post- which i wrote when i was still, let's say slightly on the low side of my life. so i don't know. maybe i was not-sane or maybe i just wanted to feel loved again, after what amanda'd say- "....betrayed you..."happened.

well i guess i am just like any girl, wanting to be pursued and searched for...but i guess it'll have to wait...

i know i'd still have You...