Well readers,…she’s back..hahaha..after a grueling 3 days (2 days +1 day off)..head still feels like a batu..haha yea a rock..well those days on mc wasn’t what I really expected it to be..i still had to do housework..well laundry basically..i felt so drained..woke up at 12noon..but felt longer..i missed like a morning which I could have done a lot…actually being sick, is the worst, when u have a lot of things to do…argh!!..i could have gone for REW, studied, cleaned the house, fold the clothes!!ah!!!so annoying right?!! I mean I could have accomplished all these, if not for the fever and flu…*ahchooo* still having it btw…ahahha.

So yea, the night before, which I think was a Sunday?( ok ok, it was nights before, but when u’re sick, dates/days don’t ring a bell in ur sickly calendar)…someone re-confirmed the emotion I was feeling or put into on sat…I felt heartbroken; I don’t know what reason..but I felt so heartbroken, that I had to break down before God and ask him to take it..it was tortourous and tiring…to be heartbroken…I mean I tot I was heartbroken because of w*but no, it wasn’t..it was different. It was real and sincere…not because of some crush..but because of life..

I guess God placed that emotion in me, to help me be sensitive and understand the emotion better. And I did; I knew it was God because when I lifted the pain up to Him, I felt joy and peace. So it had to be Him. No, it was. I am glad I felt that. Sometimes being Audrey, she gets a bit too thick skin to know what hurts and what doesn’t.

To those who are heartbroken, FEAR NOT! Your pain has not gone to waste, lift it up to the Lord and He will take it, in return for the peace and clarity you need to move on in life…He will gladly take the “garbage” for you. Can any one human being do that for you?

No.

So yeaps.. I am back in school..and it kinda feels good. Although I feel like as if I have had hangover( not that I have experienced it) the moment I took those “drugs”hahaha…so yea…rest rest rest..that’s what everyone says…but life needs to move.

I don’t depend on me. I Depend ONLY on ONE- I’d rather Hang Onto You- Lord.