as i was going home with Mark and Sherwin-yesterday..i found myself having fun..it was just us, teens talking about normal things....sherwin, if u happen, to read this...i am glad that everything's ok..i was truly worried when u told us about that incident.worried that I was gonna loose someone I truly care about...i bet mark was...*although he was crappin*..i have never felt that free before..as in just haning out...no worries...no hurt..and mark, i couldn't believe that u didn't know ……that was a winner..u should have had seen his face...it was like...hahahahahahah **uncontrollable laughter**hahahahahahha...
but the interesting thing that happened to me was that i was approached by a volunteer to donate money to some foundation. I politely decline and said that I didn’t have small change with me...but the sad thing was that she held my hand and persistently asked me to help her as she was a volunteer , while holding my hand..I guess she was afraid that I was going away...*which I wanted to*and I was like...no, m'am...i really don't have...she finally gave up...
As I was reflecting back, while on the way home, I was thinking, I could have given, but it was not the time...I just didn't have the change..i mean I couldn't help it.. However what struck me, was that she physically held my hand, not allowing me to pass (mean I could have considered it harassment) by. I was really afraid, coz she looked kind of strict.hhahaa...
I don't know, it was saddening to me, that she would stoop that low? I mean donating, is out of goodwill and charity...it is not meant to be forced, and am I right? I mean correct if i am wrong...
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on the road again. i guess it's time for all of us to wake up. I am just so giving up...I have done enough searching and have learnt that I need no guy...
I hate myself for putting myself out and constantly giving people hurt…. i just have realised that i was not meant to be pursued...now I mean pursued by the right kind of man…..coz i am tired of pursuing otheres…..SO I GIVE UP.!...it's the first time, I have given up, on something, in my life...and I am quite disappointed in myself...but it’s for the best
Anyway, as I was telling a fren, I have given up on the dating game...that I am just letting God take control...I mean..God can either give me someone or I can just give myself wholly to Him. Either way- We wins.
Toothless troofs: if u give up to God, you don’t loose. U wins!
