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Wednesday, April 28, 2010 | Wednesday, April 28, 2010
what i think

in other words:
FACEBOOK status quotes


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"if i had a chance to yell out, i would. I miss you!"

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"i'm this close to reactivating you...why do you have to be so fun?!"

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" freaking out. what should i say? I'm over...dead meat"

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" i miss hearing your voice....I <3 you Piglet!!"


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"WHERE DID ALL THE LOLLIES GO?!"


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"Wild at heart. Decided to bring some good news to someone:)) "




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Sunday, January 17, 2010 | Sunday, January 17, 2010
ps8;11:5

it's been ages since i've written anything here. people have asked me to continue writing. And i think i will.

It's definitely been a tiresome and gruelling journey for me,these couple of months. But as i write these notes, i feel rejuvenated beyond anything. As I was just spending time in God's presence( although sometimes, i don't know if He's there), i stumbled upon 2 verses in Psalms.

Psalms 8 talks about asking God for child-like faith. Do you know how difficult it is to attain that?Try putting yourself in a child's shoes- not knowing what tomorrow brings, not knowing what's going to be your next step....can you do it?. I've realised that being 21 comes with the urge to necessity to know everything that's gg to happen to you. "LEAD ME, I LAY ME DOWN" say it. only when you've really given up this urge, this need, will the barrier be brought down. i'm not gg to say it's easy, but after reading this, i've surrender everything to God. My supp, My skin, My new journey....it all becomes, His supp, His Skin, His journey with me. I'm not worried. I'm in peace


then comes
Psalms 11.this chapter highlights God's unwavering hand over [any]panic. You really have to give up[ not life, but your knowledge] and let God take control. "In the Lord, I take refuge"...as the verses move on, the psalmist talks about God observing men, and examining them. In v5, he mentions "The Lord examines the righteous, but the wicked and those who love violence his soul hates"....don't get it? According to a reference, God doesn't just preserve the believers from difficult circumstances but he test both the righteous and wicked. He's talking about me. Sometimes i'd wonder and ask God, WHY ME?....or as my mother would say "Why my baby Lord?Has she not been for you all her life?"....it hurts me when she says that. not in an- i hate you-kind hurt, but don't-cry-mummy-kinda hurt.

For some, my journey would have killed them. mentally, spiritually. A BFF of mine once told me, she wonders where i get the strength to move on? honestly, if u've seen me, i look like spots on a leopard...where i get the strength to do the things i need to, do wear sleeveless and shorts?....when i look at my old pictures[ the prettier audrey],i'd cry...and hit myself in the heart. Hate myself for a couple of seconds. Blame ME for this "curse"....


......... silent.



then...

someone tapping on the door of my heart.

" May I come in?"


"Anytime God, you're always welcome here:)"

as God walks into my life [again, after such a long while], i' m assured, I KNOW FOR SURE, that It won't be before long, that i'll see The works He's set out for me.



His everlasting Love was always there. I had to open my heart and my eyes BIGGER..... HOSANNA!

<3




the story continues
Sunday, May 24, 2009 | Sunday, May 24, 2009
the heart was never broken.

i'm still learning to not lean on my strength, but someone who's Greater than any in the world. it's kinda difficult coz we're so used to the " depend" on ourselves. we're self-sufficient human beings- not realising that we started our humble beginnings by He giving everything to us, even His own life.

There've been times where my skin just itches and i would blame myself for not being a good daughter, and it'll be a punishment clause. how silly is that?? anyways, i finally seeked professional help. the poly gave me a month's delay. i think God was really on our side, coz when ruth and i went to the national skin centre, the Lady at the reception gave me an appointment the next day! AMEN!Praise God.

i've learnt somethings over these couple of days/weeks that no matter the outcome, that i'll continue to praise and thank my father, for no one knows my future, but I know that He knows my future and hold my hand, walk with me, every step of the way.

another stepping stone of my life is coming soon. some of u know it. others may not understand, nevertheless, do me a favour. keep me in prayer, k:) thanks.

thank you for the constant thoughts and words of encouragement, bff .i wouldn't have managed to get where i, mentally, am today, without you:)

thanks comms team, for always supporting my ideas. Let's continue to bloom and be creative for God!


loves,
Audrey.




♥ Hello wello.

me and hun!
Just Audrey Rick
2nd Jan
Liverpool FC fan
Daughter to my mom and dad
Best friend to my loves and peeps
BIG sis to my only One
Lurves Green
TNG, Passionfruiters,Marshies 1079
Vintage lovers(including music)
(:
currently listening:
Why do it today when u can do it tom- Jamie Cullum


♥ Desires.


Get an iPod
(thanks mum, dad and mandy)
Green Crumpler
sleepover!
TO PASS DRIVING TEST on minimum 2 tries
watch the sunset/sunrise with someone special
to get maintain the 3.5 GPA
have a tea/picnic at Fort Canning/Sentosa!
(midsummer's night dream lor)
guitar and amps
to go jamming with friends....Let's Go...
new BIBLE
to complete a love song to you,Lord it's NOT a master piece
stay up late without parents.1 am???..
felt rather shaky though...don't wanna do it again
to have a better walk with God
Go to Perth for the Hols
to have my braces removed asap
go snorkelling.....see a new island...Koh Samui!!
where are my retainers?!!
share God's love, like never before[currently doing it!]
rock climbing?
join a marathon
a SPORTS watchPUMA-Brazilian colours!
go horse riding(now my butt hurts...)
go for mission trip!!i want i want!
swim w dolphins:))
to be able to see my god-child next year:))
go for a church-related workshop/conferenceYLMC
able to do all the housework
it's a never-ending task
spend more time with Mandy
get an OCS shirt(thanks Choy)
to go an island escape-alone
to get a new Phone!
(Finally!!!)
write a book
go on a date
still waiting.....never been asked....
go on a cruise holiday
(:

♥ Talkie.




♥ Strangers.


Piglet!♥
Audrey♥
Lizzie♥
Glenn♥ BFF
Yy♥
izzie
su!
Pastor B
yy+abel
Nisha!w55N
inspirations
Clarie!
Liverpool YNWA
my Friendster
Passionfruits cell
Bridget
Christina-Duckie!!♥
Aizat
Shazzie
Kenny Kor:)
Serina!

Aini
Marcus- Randy's Twin**
Randy- Marcus Twin**
Shikin
my photo journal
Charlene!!
James
Joel
Tricia
Ryan Goh


♥ Dance hall.

Song code.
Recommended: Imeem, Myflashfetish.

♥ Credits.

Sweet.pulchritude-
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