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Wednesday, April 28, 2010 | Wednesday, April 28, 2010
what i think
in other words:
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"if i had a chance to yell out, i would. I miss you!"
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"i'm this close to reactivating you...why do you have to be so fun?!"
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" freaking out. what should i say? I'm over...dead meat"
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" i miss hearing your voice....I <3 you Piglet!!"
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"WHERE DID ALL THE LOLLIES GO?!"
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"Wild at heart. Decided to bring some good news to someone:)) "
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Sunday, January 17, 2010 | Sunday, January 17, 2010
ps8;11:5
it's been ages since i've written anything here. people have asked me to continue writing. And i think i will.
It's definitely been a tiresome and gruelling journey for me,these couple of months. But as i write these notes, i feel rejuvenated beyond anything. As I was just spending time in God's presence( although sometimes, i don't know if He's there), i stumbled upon 2 verses in Psalms.
Psalms 8 talks about asking God for child-like faith. Do you know how difficult it is to attain that?Try putting yourself in a child's shoes- not knowing what tomorrow brings, not knowing what's going to be your next step....can you do it?. I've realised that being 21 comes with the urge to necessity to know everything that's gg to happen to you. "LEAD ME, I LAY ME DOWN" say it. only when you've really given up this urge, this need, will the barrier be brought down. i'm not gg to say it's easy, but after reading this, i've surrender everything to God. My supp, My skin, My new journey....it all becomes, His supp, His Skin, His journey with me. I'm not worried. I'm in peace
then comes
Psalms 11.this chapter highlights God's unwavering hand over [any]panic. You really have to give up[ not life, but your knowledge] and let God take control. "In the Lord, I take refuge"...as the verses move on, the psalmist talks about God observing men, and examining them. In v5, he mentions "The Lord examines the righteous, but the wicked and those who love violence his soul hates"....don't get it? According to a reference, God doesn't just preserve the believers from difficult circumstances but he test both the righteous and wicked. He's talking about me. Sometimes i'd wonder and ask God, WHY ME?....or as my mother would say "Why my baby Lord?Has she not been for you all her life?"....it hurts me when she says that. not in an- i hate you-kind hurt, but don't-cry-mummy-kinda hurt.
For some, my journey would have killed them. mentally, spiritually. A BFF of mine once told me, she wonders where i get the strength to move on? honestly, if u've seen me, i look like spots on a leopard...where i get the strength to do the things i need to, do wear sleeveless and shorts?....when i look at my old pictures[ the prettier audrey],i'd cry...and hit myself in the heart. Hate myself for a couple of seconds. Blame ME for this "curse"....
......... silent.
then...
someone tapping on the door of my heart.
" May I come in?"
"Anytime God, you're always welcome here:)"
as God walks into my life [again, after such a long while], i' m assured, I KNOW FOR SURE, that It won't be before long, that i'll see The works He's set out for me.
His everlasting Love was always there. I had to open my heart and my eyes BIGGER..... HOSANNA!
<3
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Sunday, May 24, 2009 | Sunday, May 24, 2009
the heart was never broken.
i'm still learning to not lean on my strength, but someone who's Greater than any in the world. it's kinda difficult coz we're so used to the " depend" on ourselves. we're self-sufficient human beings- not realising that we started our humble beginnings by He giving everything to us, even His own life.
There've been times where my skin just itches and i would blame myself for not being a good daughter, and it'll be a punishment clause.
how silly is that?? anyways, i finally seeked professional help. the poly gave me a month's delay. i think God was really on our side, coz when ruth and i went to the national skin centre, the Lady at the reception gave me an appointment the next day! AMEN!Praise God.
i've learnt somethings over these couple of days/weeks that no matter the outcome, that i'll continue to praise and thank my father, for no one knows my future, but I know that He knows my future and hold my hand, walk with me, every step of the way.
another stepping stone of my life is coming soon. some of u know it. others may not understand, nevertheless, do me a favour. keep me in prayer, k:) thanks.
thank you for the constant thoughts and words of encouragement, bff .i wouldn't have managed to get where i, mentally, am today, without you:)
thanks comms team, for always supporting my ideas. Let's continue to bloom and be creative for God!
loves,
Audrey.